loving selflessly

We all have moments where we realize things about ourselves. The past few days have been that for me. I have been surprised to realize how little I have been willing to do out of love for my husband. I have so many excuses. I don't iron his shirts because I don't have time and it is a waste of my time to iron his shirts. Yikes! Truly my list could go on and on. Today I have set my flint to ask what can I do today to show my husband love. Yes, I must tell you I already was selfish this morning and unloving and yet I quickly confessed it as sin, received forgiveness and am ready to begin a new. Anne of Green Gables says "tomorrow is always fresh with no mistakes" and I recognize that every moment is fresh with no mistakes. It is with great humility and excited I begin again this moment and say I will daily learn to lay my life down for my husband and our son. Enjoying the process!

2009 A Year of Fullness

I know many people have been blogging for a while and yet I just didn't have the heart to start one myself. . .now I am more excited than ever to start because I have a purpose. What is my purpose? My purpose is simply to take this next year and learn to love my husband more. He has spent over 5 years of our marriage laying his life down for me and I ask myself what have I really been willing to sacrifice for him? My heart is longing for a year of fullness in our marriage like never before. Somehow I know that my heart is bursting forth with so many dreams--speaking, writing, ministering--and yet for this time I want to put my energy and efforts into someone else--ironically my husband and I are one so it really is myself and the more I continue to mature the more I realize the oneness all around us. Everyday my actions are effecting not only me but every one around me. It is with great humility and grace that I embark on a journey like never before--seeking the treasure of knowing the joy of giving myself fully and completely to another being my amazing husband as I have never before. Father, I know not where I'm going, but I do know my eyes are fixed upon You and with this I am content and confident it will be the most exciting and rewarding journey I have ever taken in my life. The anchor is pulled up the sails are set and away I go!!!

Who will you lay your life down for this year?